Friday, January 29, 2010

Abenor: The Ancient Word for Love

My father used to call my grandmother a witch.  I never listened to him because he never had anything nice to say about my mother or her family.  I took what he said with a grain of salt.  It wasn't until much later that I realized their was a grain of truth in what my father said.  

The women in my family have always had a strong connection with the paranormal and this connection was at it's strongest with my grandmother, Kay.  Kay was a passionate and needy woman who was afraid of being alone.  She was a beautiful woman that was used to being adored by the men around, so after the first few years of marriage ground the edges off of my grandfather's, Raymond's, adoration, my grandmother found herself lost in loneliness.   Raymond was a good man, but he never knew what to do with his beautiful and slightly melodramatic wife, so he retired to his study at the end of every day to find peace.  

Kay couldn't stand her loneliness and she turned to the ouiji board to find some answers to her condition.   In order to use the ouija board she enlisted the assistance of her young daughter, my mother, Robin.  It started slowly.  My grandmother would ask the spirits questions and they would answer.  Robin hated it.  She fought it.  She felt that something was wrong in the core of her being and the ritual terrified her, but Kay persisted.  It wasn't long before one spirit in particular started a dialogue with Kay.  His name was Alonk and Kay and he spent their lonely evenings together with little Robin trapped between them.   Every night the two met  and spoke over the ouija board and every night they drug Robin with them.

Alonk loved Kay and he told her that the ancient word for love was abenor.   Abenor was their secret word for love, more powerful than any English word.   So the lovers met as often as they could, but Kay was encountering a problem.  Little Robin hated Alonk.   Little Robin hated the ouija board and refused to play.   Kay was not deterred.  She turned to her youngest daughter, Kathy, to play with and the love affair continued with a frantic passion that consumed Kay and her new assistant.

My mother still remembers my aunt, a little girl of five, sitting on the bay window looking out, waiting for Alonk to come for her.  She still remembers little Kathy speaking with fire of her mother's love.   Life moved on and even little Kathy grew up, taking with her Kay's connection to Alonk.  Raymond and Kay were divorced and Kay remarried.  She married a man that adored her and gave her the love she wanted.   Alonk vanished. 

But Robin's scars remained in a deep fear of the supernatural, especially the ouija board.   Kay is old now, very old ,and alzheimers has taken many of her  memories.  She forgets who I am and who Robin is.  She forgets everything, but she insists that she was married three times and she remembers Alonk and the ancient word for love, abenor. 

4 comments:

Kristina said...

ok, I can't read anymore since I'm home alone for the week. I'll have to keep going later.... when my big bad "protecteder" (as Mia says) is home. Fun stuff!

Grim said...

This is really cool and interesting. Kinda sad how the kid was ignored by her mother in favor of the board though. And the word "abenor" sounds like something out of a goth romance. I've only used the board about five or six times and each time I was alone since I could never find anyone else that would "play" it with me (nor would I ask, it's kinda taboo in my family) and all I'd ever get were "yes" and "no" responses and jumbled letters but I'm not sure if that was only b/c there absolutely NEEDS to be two people playing or if I was just doing something wrong. I've heard numerous theories on the Ouija, with obviously, talking to the dead the most common. But I know people that also use it as a sort or personal pendulum, that answers questions asked by them supposedly coming from their subconscious. If the latter is true, it sounds like your grandma was a bit loved starved and attention craving.

Good post.

Robin said...

Well done, Jessica. You emphasized the romantic involvement of my mother with Alank. I sometimes forget about that aspect of my years as a "medium". As a teenager, after a brief period of fascination, I resented my mother and Alank...the whole ouji board thing and her neediness made me want to scream! In retrospect, as an adult I often feel a chill that I was even a reluctant participant in something that was so evil. Why didn't I stand up to her and say "no"? I think I said "Yes" because it was easier. If I said "yes" she would leave me alone.
Your last couple of sentences gave me a chill, because in her hallucinations today she sees Alank.

Anonymous said...

Alonk was a evil, are a lots of report who play with quija board all problem star later.I was only one time confront a evil rage long time ago with my best friend who die time before. After that never again I won a try,I don't afraid a Evil, because God protect me, but play with fire is not good idea.